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She laughs out loud.
Talking to herself.
She's crazy.
She doesn't care though.
She's happy.

She laughs.
She smiles.
This girl is surrounded with her friends.
Happy with her life.


She sighes.
She cries.
She can't cope with the stress.
Stress of work.
Stress of life.

Then the feeling that all of these other feelings simmer to eventually.
Depressed.
Dead.
Down.
Drained.

She wants to scream.
She wants to shout.

She wants to let it all out.
But her anger she must bury.
Otherwise a rampage of spilling out swear words and other vile.
Out of control, reckless and stupid.
Not thinking of consequences.
So look emotionless.
Or 'in a mood' as they call it.

She hates her anger.
She hates her thoughts and feelings.
She hates her looks.
She hates herself.

Selfish.
Selfish.
Selfish.
That's what guilt whispers in her ears.

She cries.
She tries not to infront of people.
She sobs herself to sleep.

She can't help.
She's hopless.
She has no hope.
She's helpless.

Confusion eats away at her brain.
What made her this way?
No answer again...

And then the feeling you rarely see.
Scared.
She is a shivering, quivering child.
Small, lost and naive.
Corroding with anxiety.
Sickened with worry of the things her mind makes up.
Scared to trust, to love, to dream.
To speak her mind, to show her feelings.
And no one can save her...
I guess it just shows the layers you see and the layers you don't. And maybe thats why I called it layers of skin. To relate it to self harm. As that's a try to let the layers of emotion that aren't seen rise to the surface.

:) And yes this is about me...
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Seastar515 Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013
I love it. So relatable
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Candy-Rocket Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You just described my life since I was bout...7.
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PizzaPotatoNBacon Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Student General Artist
Excellent piece; beautifully written and understandable but it's still deep. I've been there, but "I've let it all out already". Selfish is sometimes what my mom calls me, though not for the same reasons here. I'm trying to let it all out, or I am succeeding in it. If this is about you, then you can always talk to me :) I love making new friends~
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MrHello556 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013
The last part is very relatable.
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Annuski Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Student Writer
This is captivating, although its horrible that it's about you...please, please, please if you ever relapse talk to someone, I mean, I will listen too if you feel comfortable enough to speak to me. No judgements.
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YellowTori Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you :)
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